Bad case of the blahs

I don't want to read. I don't want to sew. I don't want to bead. I don't want to teach. I don't want to dance. Nothing sounds good to eat. I don't want to type. I didn't want to go to church. I don't even want to surf the WWW - which is very strange. I don't want to go to bible study. When I barfed a week ago Saturday till I thought I was going to die, I must have barfed out my soul. I did do a scalp wash yesterday, but I hardly have the energy to pin my hair back. This hair is very lackadaisical. At least the circles under my eyes are gone, but I don't know when my husband is going to ever kiss me again after hearing me retch my guts out followed by diarrhea at the other end. The door in the travel trailer provides as much privacy as a plastic curtain.

Then to add insult to injury, in the emergency room the doctor asks if I can keep Tylenol down for the fever (I couldn't) so he tells the nurse, "Give her the suppository," and he walks out. My eyes, boing!, open up and I said I want to take those pills now, only I'm so weak no one can hear a thing I say. I got, ugh, a suppository.

A quote from The Sheltering Sky

"Because we don't know when we will die, we get to think of life as an inexhaustible well, yet everything happens only a certain number of times, and a very small number, really. How many more times will you remember a certain afternoon of your childhood, some afternoon that's so deeply a part of your being that you can't even conceive of your life without it? Perhaps four or five times more, perhaps not even that. How many more times will you watch the full moon rise? Perhaps twenty. And yet it all seems limitless."
-Quoted from the book The Sheltering Sky

All I have left is packing

Sheesh. I have the cooking done, the cleaning done. All I have left is to pack my own stuff. Yay.

We're going to Karchner Caverns. We're going to Tombstone too.

Must pack

I am dying to post at The Loom. Everyone is adding such great photos! But I have to pack for our trip and if my husband sees me sitting here typing he will surely strangle me!

Today in my new top with fringe! 

Cleaning up throw-up

Our poor kiddo. He tossed his cookies at 3:30 this morning. We've been trying to clean up the stink ever since. My husband cleaned the carpet and the blankets. I got our son all cleaned up and back to bed. We've been cleaning one spot on the carpet over and over again all day long trying to get rid of the stink. There's no stain, but oh dear, such odor. No church for us tonight.

I washed my hair completely today. I felt smelly all over what with all the cleaning up.

Now I'm going out to clean our trailer. We're going on a camping trip to Arizona!!!

Stomach flu

I have the stomach flu and now our little boy is coming down with it. I'm hoping he won't get it as badly as I did. The cramps were terrible! Worst of all, I'll miss belly dance class tonight. My hair is in a plain bun and withstanding the illness like a trooper.

Asked for a diary

Our little boy (in second grade) asked for a diary. My husband bought him one at Office Max and now he's been writing in it diligently. This is quite a milestone for me. The reason why it's a milestone for me the mamma is because I have postponed writing despite the fact that there's quite a bit included in our rather rigorous curriculum. Sometimes it's scary following my own instinct (well, I'm prayerful too).

The word curriculum is derived from Latin and it means 'to run.' Sometimes we can get so caught up in the running, that we overlook the quality of the learning. And education is not a race, but a marathon. I purchased curricula to serve me, not for me to serve the curricula. If I forced my son to write as much as is required in my lesson plans I have not a shred of doubt he would come to hate writing. I wanted more than anything to avoid this. I want him to write for the love of writing, not because it's required. Now my patience is rewarded. He even asks me to spell some words for him! Praise the Lord!

I took a vacation from my hair

I needed a short respite from my hair. I took it and I'm back. I missed my blog.

Since I wasn't blogging I didn't stick with my two hair washes per week. I just did whatever I wanted. Last week I fully washed twice and did one scalp wash.

Last night was a complete Vita-Veeta-Vegga-Min regimen beauty night. I was up until 3:00am. I polished my toes with a spectacular electric pink, I waxed all parts in need of waxing (except for my knuckles which drag on the ground so all the hairs are rubbed off already), and I uber oiled my hair with coconut oil overnight. Now I'm semi-attractive (semi: a prefix signifying half, and sometimes partly or imperfectly) and ready to greet the week.

I found a new belly dance class in town and I signed up. It's six weeks, so now I'm taking my new class on Tuesday, my old class on Thursday, and troup practice on Friday nights. Last Friday we danced for three hours! I ordered a silk veil from Akai silks on Ebay. She sells a lot of seconds, meaning stuff that didn't turn out perfectly, and her imperfect veils are beautiful. The one I ordered is black, burgundy, and gold banded. Good colors for ATS (American Tribal Style) which is the dance style I'm interested in. We did veil work for the first time last week and it was so much fun. The teacher showed us some basic moves plus about five ways to wrap the veil and tuck it in here and there around your body to look pretty. It's just so girly!

My scarf wouldn't stay on

I was completely disgusted today. It was a bad hair day and the French braid with tiny flowers didn't happen. Instead, I fixed up my new scarf in the Jerusalem Twist style. My husband liked it and my son liked it. I got in the truck and drove us to church for our Isaiah study and the mere turning of my head this way and thataway caused my scarf to fall off completely. Each time I turned my head it fell off a little more until ten minutes later when we arrive at the church parking lot the thing is just flopping around my neck. I was so disgusted with the whole ordeal.

Now I have to rethink my whole scarf 'do.

I absolutely hate fiddling with my hair in front of people, so I had retire to the ladies room, pin my hair up again, and I just tied my scarf plainly. It was maybe a little cute, but not that cute wrapped plainly. I will have to write a special email tomorrow. I know someone who has worn head scarves and perhaps she will give me some tips.

I inadvertently deleted myself

[ S I L E N T S C R E A M ]

I just deleted my most recent post in its entirety. I cannot retype because I have to go to bed now because tomorrow I have to be at Bible study at the crack of 9:30am.

My husband's daughter and her beautiful little boy spent the day at our home yesterday. My husband and his daughter are rekindling their relationship at record speed. They're getting reacquainted. I watch them trying to make up for 20 lost years.

I'm doing coconut oil deep condish tonight and tomorrow, French braid tucked underneath and pinned securely with tiny fake flowers decorating it.

That's the short version.

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No silicone products. Experiment completed.

November 22, 2004 through January 2, 2005.
I'm done with my no silicone project. I had read that some women found lots of split ends and general dryness to their hair when they discontinued using 'cone containing hair products. The consensus was that by using Pantene (or other silicone product), the 'cones were actually disguising split ends and general poor health of the hair such that the hair appeared healthy when in fact it was not. I felt I had to try going completely without Pantene in order to assess the true health of my hair. Well, my hair is the same. It has the same feel, same fullness, same appearance, same, same, same. So I'm done. I did it and I'm glad.

Yesterday I bought Alterna enzymetherapy hemp seed straightening balm. I tried a sample prior to November last year and knew I liked it. It works pretty well to smooth out those pokey silver hairs at the nape of my neck. It is loaded with 'cones! I like all the oils I use very, very much...and, well, I like the silicone products too. I will use them sometimes.